[bEhinD thE mask] 
[latEly]
||--catatan sEbuah ghayEr… [lost in timE]
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 16 November 2005 havE u EvEr wakE up 1 Day, n fElt complEtEly lost? u nEED sm1 so baDly but suDDEnly thErE’s noboDy’s arounD? sounD’s typical, ritE.. it always happEn 2mE.. but wut ElsE can i do, bEsiDEs 2 EnDurE EvErytg on my own.. sbnrnyE Entry aku Diz timE bkn nk mEncEritakan kE’lost’an aku. aku cuma tErpanggil utk mEnyampaikan apprEciation aku paDa sEsEorg. spEcifically; 2 a blog i grEw 2 attach with, n DefinitEly my gratituDE 2 its crEator. korang mEti tErtanya2kan, pE yg spEcial sgt aDE kat blog nih.. sapE ownEr DiE.. cmnEr 1 blog blh bg impak Dlm lifE sm1 totally ‘unsavEvable’ likE mE.. (ntah btol kE x ayat aku tuh, hEh..) smpikn aku rajin sgt nk bckp sal blog nih? hmm.. aku rasE 1st n forEmost, baik korg tgk sEndiri camnEr rupa blog nih, klu aku citEr lEbih2 tp korg xtgk sEndiripn xgunE jugak,kn.. sEkali tgk, korg probably akan katE, ‘it’s juz anothEr typical e-jurnal.. wut’s so spEcial wit it?’ btol x? biar aku mulakan dr awal ‘pErkenalan’ aku dgn blog nih.. i wuz introducE 2Diz blog by a ‘frEn’ of minE, who’s a frEn 2 EdnEl@ED,writEr of Diz blog. sygnyE friEnDship yg aku harap sgt akan kEkal, musnah cm2 jEr, but that’s on anothEr Entry k.. timE tu, blognih still kat aDD lamEr, using bloggEr. i usED 2 know ED (by thE namE acap) back at skuDai, knal muka n nama jEr.. coz diE kwn my x-frEn, lgpn kitorg sEkolEj, pnh involvE program n club yg samEr, tp xpEnah bckp pun.. hEh.. timE tuE, 1st imprEssion aku, hE’s juz a spoil rich brat.. but likE thE olD saying, ‘nEvEr juDgE a book by its covEr’.., in diz casE, by othErs tell-tale. 1st timE aku bacE blog nih, i was so shockED.. aku btol2 xsangka Dgn stail pEnulisannya. 4mE, hE’s a gooD writEr..lain sgt Dgn gambaran ttg DiE yg aDEr Dlm minD aku sElamE nih. bg aku, blog ni haDir Disaat aku btol2 hilang arah.. timE aku confusE Dgn Diri aku sEnDiri.. 1 timE, bila ‘Dia’ pErgi Dr hiDupku Dgn alasan plg boDoh n tak munasabah yg aku pErnah Dgr, aku btol2 taktau pE aku nak buat. aku tak boleh nangis, xDpt nak marah, jD blur tahap cipan.. nak sharE Dgn orglain, hEh.. tak mungkin aDEr yg suDi mEnDgr Dgn ikhlas.. suDDEnly, kat blog nih, aDEr Entry sal lEtting go.. aftEr bacE Entry tuh, aku sEDar smtg.. Dan skrg aku Dah mampu ingat kEnangan lalu tanpa rasE sEdih@skt hati lg.. sbnrnyEr aku pErasan smtg ‘bout Diz blog.. klu aku tERpikir ‘bout smtg, somE mattErs yg tErjaDi Dlm lifE aku, n mula mEnghantui aku, aku akan jumpE solutionnyE paDa blog nih.. ia mEsti adE kat Entry2 tuh, tak kiralah samaDa DiuploaD cpt@lmbt. yg pastinyE, its bEcomE a pattErn, sEolah2 ED tau apE yg aku pErlukan, its likE hE can rEaD my minD 4m far away, guiDg mE 2clEar all thE clouDs away.. sounDs crEEpy lak tEtibE.. hEh.. tp itulah rEason yg mEmbuatkan blog nih vEry2 Dear 2mE.. skang Dah jD cam habit plak 4mE utk baca blog ED EvEryDay. 1st thing yg aku akan buat bilE surf intErnEt aDalah bacEr blog nih Dulu. hEh, jgn risau, im juz attach 2 thE blog, not thE ownEr,k.. itulah kisah ttg sEbuah blog, yg aku rasE Dh byk sgt guiDE aku in lifE, EvEn 4 only in Diz short tErm of timE. 2 mr. ED, thanx so much 4ur writing. im not surE wuts ur rEaction on Diz, but arD really hopE u wont b maD. arD juz want 2convEy thE DEEpEst gratituDE 2u, 4m thE bottom of my hEart.. thanx, 4 touchg my lifE.... arigato’..-arD-
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